After a couple of weeks (maybe months) of soul searching, I am still trying to decide whether or not to query my finished manuscript.
I poured man weeks of time into this work and a great deal of love. That word sounds funny (especially coming from me), but it’s true. You don’t put that much of yourself into something unless you love it. And I would like to share that with other people, maybe convince them to love these characters as much as I do.
Even if I am extremely lucky and am able to get the manuscript published, I am putting a lot of myself on the line. Any rejection feels like a personal rejection because you have put so much of yourself into it.
What is others don’t like it?
What will the publisher make me change?
What if I don’t like the changes required to get it published?
What if no one buys it?
I’m sure I can come up with a dozen more things, but I’m not going to try. I’m already worried enough.
I think this is the doubt writers and other creative types are plagued with. Why put yourself on the line like this?
That’s the real question, isn’t it? Is it worth putting yourself out there? Opening yourself to the nameless, faceless criticism that comes with creating something?
I don’t have an answer. Not yet.