I have been working on a manuscript for over a year. I took a break from it when I hit around 45,000 and started another book. I finished that book, revised it, and turned back to the 45,000 words.
Those words stared at me for a few days. Then I scrapped them and started over.
I am now at the 25,000 word mark and again wondering if I should start something else.
But I don’t want to give up. I don’t want to quit. That’s not who I am.
Time to analyze.
Thinking through the issues the past few weeks has helped me hone in on where my trouble is.
- The manuscript in question is a romance novel and the male lead is someone I wouldn’t like in real life. At least, not at the beginning of his character arc. Maybe even not at the end. But he is interesting.
- The heroine is “nice”, and in my world, that has meant someone who tends to be a victim. But she isn’t, and I can’t let myself write her that way.
- The hero has to be kept out of his center of power or the story ends. I had foolishly planned much of the story to happen after her returned to his center of power.
I am not sure I want to give up yet. This is a story I want to tell or I wouldn’t have invested so much into it.
I can’t change the hero’s basic ruthlessness or he’s no longer the hero. I can’t make the heroine less of a kind person, or I rob her of an innate part of herself.
So, I have to revamp where I think the story is going and stretch my writing muscle to get there. Being true to both characters the whole time.